shoes, feet, and things...

a pain in the foot. apparently caused by shoes. all shoes. i suppose learning to walk through my feet in ballet helped, and the amount of time i spend barefoot helps, but it's not enough. no wonder when drunk i tend to take off my shoes in unreasonable places (i.e. downtown boston) - it's instinctual! (that shoe is painted on, by the way)

of course, completely ignoring the advice of the article, i'm buying a pair of very supportive sandals, having given up on anything wonderfully stylish, since my feet are completely flat and just look squished and silly in those skinny strap elegant things with no arch support (ballet flats are a very different story). thus, these:


speaking of ballet, i haven't made it back since that first class two weeks ago. despite being so much fun and so invigorating and feeling so right, the studio is forever away and i've just had too much going on (see below). but having the ballet slippers, the leotard, the tights just sitting and staring at me in my room. i need to need to need to get back. maybe tomorrow. maybe this weekend. i keep saying that.

so what do i do all day? i read, lots. for classes, for the conference this weekend, and for the paper still due for last quarter as soon i'll have to start writing papers for this quarter. insomnia's kicking in again, sadly, but perhaps it'll go away again. hah.

sorry for the dull post. life is just not terribly interesting.

an attempt

i shall attempt to be a better blogger!

today was still incredibly snowy. but my new boots helped.


i gave up on the multiple attempts at knee high boots. apparently my calves are giant and my ankles are oddly shaped, because none of the beautiful boots that i carefully oggled, selected, waited for, and carefully unwrapped when they finally showed up fit well enough for me to invest the amount of money they cost me. so, i gave up and bought a pair of sorels from sierratradingpost.com and while they are more than slightly boatish, they keep my feet warm and i can go tromping. so, snow is beautiful, if still inconvenient, again.

other than that, lovely evening out with first years as mb's boyfriend is in town for the weekend. deliciously huge mediterranean meal at cedars - hummus, pita, lamb, cauliflower, baba ganooj, veggie curry, and divine rice pudding and baklava for desert. still full. still so happy.

seeing mb with the bf made me wish for friends to visit again... having ap and fchm here a couple weekends ago was so lovely. i enjoy my friends here, but big h people still know me better. and ap is the best of make bfs i've had.... default date, whatever. we go on wonderful outings and snuggle and can hang out for simply ever. and i think we've never had any hang ups in sexual tension or contemplating anything more, at least not from this side. i do hope that we stay friends forever.

in any case.... it is late, i am contemplating splurging at anthropologie sale site on some beautiful things i'll post later. i think it's time to invest in some good quality clothes that won't just lose their sparkle with wear.

ordered.

yeah yeah... i'm horrible at posting from home. i'm back in chicago now and probably back to more frequent writing. we'll see...

without pre-posting, without too much consulting, but plenty of thought, i just ordered two pairs of boots. unless i fall in love with both of them, one is going back. piperlime free shipping both ways, thank you very much.

one very much on sale:


and one very much not:

oohhh i'm excited about them showing up!

page 7

slowly working through this paper. slowly slowly slowly. writing literary reviews is not fun. there's little original thought; it's just going over what other people have said and showing how it's applicable or not to what i'm going to say someday. i don't get to go into any of my cool primary material - i.e. no pretty pictures or flowery descriptions. sigh. but about halfway to my page goal and maybe a third of the way through my material. blerg.

other than that, today was really great. brunch with ks, mb, and js - my girls - at medicci. i love love love breakfast food and this omelette - bacon, spinach, and cream cheese - was divine. as were the potatoes. as was having girl talk that, even though our papers came up every once in a while, was generally just silliness about tv and goign home and birthdays.

and then tonight rita and i took a massive target trip.

i got these:


to go with my dress and because they're pretty and shiny....

this because i need more comfy shirts that aren't cardigans:

these to frame the prints i bought for people the holidays


these, powdered sugar and food coloring so that i can make cookies at some point this week

these because they were soooo cheap and i've been wanting something different to eat


and shampoo. since when i thought i bought a bottle of shampoo and a bottle of conditioner the other day, it was actually two bottles of conditioner. dumb. dumb. dumb me.

isn't it amazing what target has to offer? gotta love it.

i am incredibly desirous of this sweater coat from anthropologie. i have wanted a sweater coat forever and am contemplating spending the money to get a good one. i think i shall get myself downtown this weekend and do a little shopping. i did get my first paycheck this week, which would actually cover the cost of this coat, though i should probably be responsible and save. carbonella sweater coat
also fond of this one - and it has a hood! - though i don't think it looks quite as warm and i don't know about the seaming.... spooky story sweatercoat

and then there are these:

which are the shoes i wore all last winter and spring and threw out as i walked out of my dorm for the last time because the soles had been falling off for weeks. i would really like to buy myself another pair, because they are the perfect black flats, but i keep finding reasons not to. perhaps i'll just give in. blowfish stella antique black flats

the thing is, i am a graduate student. i have enough money to treat myself every once in a while, but i don't really have enough money to keep buying myself clothes, as i have been doing since i got here (first old navy stuff, of which i still need to return the ill fitting jeans and too tight shirt, and now awaiting undies from victoria's secret - necessary!). sooooo... perhaps i'll wait just a bit longer. but the thing with the sweater coat is that it's perfect weather right now, and probably won't be in another month. once i get back to california i'd be able to wear it again, but chicago probably won't keep treating me this nicely for long.

(if you can't tell, i'm not doing my reading. which is very very irresponsible of me. i'm going to go back to it now. i swear. no more looking at clothes.)